Hello,
Seems like everyone miss their old self. The memories flood in when we read our past. The happy times, having fun, being stupid, falling in love, nothing to worry, nothing to plan ahead or nothing to be afraid. The once innocent, just two years, became who am I now. All those fantasies of being free were bullshit.
People can really change in such a short time. I still remember I was at college for orientation and surprised by seeing familiar faces around me, and now I'm graduated for three weeks already. Before I go to college, a person warned me about backstabbers. What I thought that time was:" Nah, everyone is so innocent, why would they backstab." After a year or so, what that person said was bullseye. People started to change because of new environment, new people and somewhat "Asshole Mode" was switched on.
Mine got switched on as well. Obviously is because of the idiotic people I was surrounded. First started by a few people and with a little of sugar and salt, it spread to everyone. It was drama everyday. Anything can change in a second. As time goes by, I realized. Why are we all so shaken by just letting other people pouring their thoughts to us? Are we that vulnerable to other people's thought?
Where is the original us? The one that can't be moved easily. Is it because of the whole new surrounding or is it just us that didn't hold upon the old us? Is this what growing up means? If yes, I would like to stay the way I was back two years ago. For wishing I will grow up when I was young was way stupid of me. I should have wish everyone stay the way they are and never change.
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3 years later, here I am reading my whole blog, lol. Saw this post and decided to publish it now (cause why not :P) Thanks for reading!
